"That's right! I admired his desire to cook because it was beautiful! But none of that feeling is my own! What else can you call it but hypocrisy?! I was driven by my obsessive need to cook something. I kept frying, neither noticing the fat nor how oily It was! But it's all a fake. Such hypocrisy can not cook anything. No, first of all, I didn't even know what I wanted to cook!"