There were often times I forgot Jiraiya was dead and that every time Naruto would come back to the village he'd show up, but deep in my heart I knew he was dead. And I just sat there reading of Naruto's accomplishments and thinking: "Jiraiya is really going to congratulate him this time! ...Wait..."
I know what sake tastes like nowThen everything is all right now I seeI have a family nowI'm big enough to carry you on my back nowI have achieved my dreamYou know, Ero-sennin