I'm pretty sure... there were some times when I just cried like a kid.

Meeting Samantabhadra but not finding the torii, I become a monkey and drive the world mad.

I couldn't get over losing Hijiri, my reason to exist... I felt lost.

That was when Koishi

For the while(few centuries) that we spent in the Underground

I stayed cooped up inside the ship.

...It's the Lake of Blood again...

appeared in front of me.