You can't be happy because you need to learn a lot more and draw a line between fiction and reality. Fiction are made of dreams after all.
Maybe your descendence or 10 generations after will have an android/hologram big titty anime girl. However the quickest you accept that won't happen to you, the better for you to find an alternative comfort on you present realm. Life is beautiful outside, just follow your way without hurting other people. They look for some comfort too.