Ok...Really? Do you want Onee-chan and Onii-chan to go with you half way?The first time I saw her in her uniform,Ohh~Don't move.I have someone I love...Definitely,Hey! It's the truth!Stop it. What would you do if it left a scar?Fine, you can have my eyelashes. I don't need them.Why are you so worried about me? It's weird...Hey!HeyAt that time, the confusion inside of me,Hey, don't ask that....I'm not worried... or anything... N-Nii-chan would also... say the same thing... I think... I think!Huh? That's so trivial...Her handStarting tomorrow, you'll have to put it on yourself.I-I'll be fine.Kazuki, you'll enter middle school in another year, but until then, everyone will be worried about you. Because you're still a child.I dunno. This is what was on when I turned on the TV. It's pretty interesting.N...Is it about Saeko?You wouldn't understand, Kazuki.Hey.Really, you're the only one not like us.Nah.It wasYou might have it for the rest of your life.Anyway, even if you don't get my eyelashes...I wonder why?Saeko's worried about you too.Where did Saeko go?I would play there a lot with my sister, who was 1 year older.But we were still very close.I don't know!She's worried too. But...Ah, what are you watching?I don't know. Kazuki had it on.Eh?Eh... Who? Seriously...But that was all.Eh, really?Look, look!Fine.It's a real pain on rainy days.Onii-chan, let's go to school together tomorrow!I can't really explain it, but...I'll be a little late today.Eh, why?It's ok. Mom will wash it off later.I loved my brother and sister.Put it on me, put it on!Ok!If anything happens, call either Mom or me.Some sort of confusion was born.Saeko!Of course she'd get mad.I'll dry soon, so it's fine.Mom will get mad.......Not really.What was it?Ever since I can remember, there's been a small sandbox in our yard.So he didn't play outside that much.The year that my sister entered middle school, I finally grew taller than her.Onee-chan, you're muddy...I'm just going shopping with a friend!Eh, what?Stop messing up my hair.You're the one who's jealous!Don't say anything to Nee-chan?Just like love.I know that!Saeko, can't you put on your uniform by yourself?I can go to school by myself, even if you're not there.I'll be fine.Eh?My older brother hated getting his clothes dirty.Hey, this is good, right!My Lost Diary
First PartAhOh, sorry, sorry!It felt like Onee-chan suddenly grew up.I entered my 3rd year of middle school.My sister entered her first year of high school.Instead, her waist shrank like a crushed can.Eh? What?Wasn't it Kazuki?Nee-chan, you forgot your scarf.There weren't any flabs of fat around her stomach.What are you watching? A drama? What's today...It's nothing.Good night...Well, I don't know, but they're calling you.I don't know her.AhOddly, the area around my lungs hurt.I said I won't.What are you doing? You're being really loud.You mean that boy in your class that you were walking with before?Wah! You surprised me.It didn't change much.That's because your own hair is straight.Just kidding.That was to go shopping for the cultural festival!Ah~, I want to have plastic surgery~But Onii-chan and I have eyelashes like Dad.You're lucky. You have eyelashes like Mom.I'm fine with that, but since you've always gone to elementary school together with Kazuki, will he be fine with it?Dad never answers his phone.Eventually, I'll grow even taller than you...Her rounded shoulders had bones sticking out, and her back was slender.I see.Eh?That's ok.For just an instant,Are you sure? Will you be able to pass by the Konno family's dog by yourself?I said I'll be fine...I said...A child...HahahaAs the years passed, that confusion grew bigger and more distorted.GrinFufufuStop it!Ah... I already put it back on your bookshelf.What?Did she say something to you?She would do that when she's sad because things aren't going her way,What?Turned into an uncomfortable feeling.What kind of stupid things are you talking about?What?Don't say that. Don't be jealous.That's not true.In exchange, you'll get my frizzy hair.KazukiThat's not what I mean.ContinuedHer hands were now smaller than mine.Didn't you have it?The bookshelf! I only looked on my desk. Thanks.Kazuki, you can take a bath.Good night...Who?Eh!?I'm home.Eh... I guess telling Kazuki is ok...Yeah...I might have replied with something,It felt like she was filled with blubber inside.The bath.Kazuki, did you have my dictionary?Ummm...Can I?Mmm...Eh?She got mad at me when I suddenly opened the door.Saeko takes such long baths. I want to hurry up and go to bed.Ah, no, nevermind.Eh, what? Why?It was an old habit of hers.Well, Kazuki, lately... Haven't you been cold towards Saeko?Kazuki, someone from the next class...The girls in my grade seemed really young.Is it the new drama? Who's in it?And she's annoyed with herself.Eh, ah... I see. I'm sorry for suddenly......Do you have someone else that you like?Every time I would hear about who was dating who, and that sort of thing, I would think hmph.AhOk?Ok!?CreakThe creaking of the old stairs when I stepped on them was somehow similarI saw Nee-chan biting her lip.Me?Well...What?Saeko has a boyfriend.Yeah.Instead,I had heard once thatSuch a kind and innocent sister...Don't tell Dad, ok?AhWow, that's great.To the sound of something inside of me moving each time I saw my sister.Whatever, just go.When I was confessed to, my heart was racing, and of course I was happy.Hey, KazukiReally? Really?Can I tell Kazuki?Gradually, my sister and brother's voices grew distant.And went to sleep still wearing my uniform.I woke up in the middle of the night.I drank more of the slightly warm water than I needed to quench my thirst.I wasn't annoyed like I was before.I heard something clanking, so I woke up.I went down to the kitchen in the darkness.Whoa... Umm, I'm... Sorry...Mm... Nothing...I guess I hated my sister?Really?CreakCreakI turned the faucet and water came out.I had recently found that it was something like the confusion I've felt ever since I was a child.I didn't have any dinner,I started thinking about my sister a lot.And then on one of those nights, this happened.But I don't really remember.For some reason, when I thought of her, I would get really annoyed and feel sick.There were days when I felt feverish and wanted to scream.Onii-chan, you're definitely going to tell him.Well, Saeko...If you're going to sleep, change your clothes.Ok.In any case, that night,It was just like my own unclear consciousness.Are you feeling ill?Well, do that too.You don't seem to be your normal self....Ah!Since I was really thirsty,The place where that feeling used to be was now filled with up by something else.Kazuki?I'll change my clothes.I won't say such stupid things anymore.I'll take one tomorrow morning.Come over here. You're getting floor wet, so I'll dry your hair.And I was scared of myself being scared of her like this.I was scared of being touched by her.Yeah... It's not like... I just thought that.Eh, do you seriously want plastic surgery?I want to increase the height of my nose. But it's so expensive.